Hello there!
Yes, it's that time of the year again: exam time. We started exams this past Monday with English and Afrikaans together. Because I'm grade 9, we write departmental exams, so they're really unpredictable and you have no idea what to learn. The teachers tell us to learn everything we've done. EVERYTHING.
We wrote maths today and it was so incredibly difficult that I started crying when I got outside. Not crying badly, but a few stray tears escaped. But, I shall not say anything more about such depressing subjects, simply because they are depressing.
My dad bought us a new TV today, and although I know he bought it with good reason and we are specially re-doing our TV-room (how it used to look, with built-in wall fixtures [or whatever you call them], couldn't accommodate a plasma). Now we have one, and it's great and pretty and huge, but I can't seen to shake the feeling that he shouldn't have done it. Maybe it's because I don't like change or maybe it's because we're spending A LOT of money now (Re-doing our one bathroom, TV room, new TV, new surround-sound, new DVD player, Christmas, holiday and even more things) that I'm just scared about our finances or maybe it's something else completely! My dad says that we did well this year (with the farming and olives), but I can't help but worry a little. I'm praying about it, though, so I'm sure it'll work out just fine.
To be brutally honest, I don't know how I feel about the boy anymore. I'm SUPER confused and my feelings change almost daily, so I have no idea what to think, feel or say. I sat with him (alone) for about 45 minutes before exams on Wednesday, and we talked and I helped him learn his Afrikaans (he doesn't learn much - but I do). I know, it's quite weird because he's older than me, but it was setwork and he was learning someone else's summary of the book they did, so I just help him to remember it. Since then I've only talked to him once and it was very brief and just after I'd finished exercising, so I looked all red and blotchy and hideous. So I don't know what to think. I don't think I like him anymore, yet I still want him. It's weird. I'm weird. Oh, well. :) But I think he thinks of us as just friends, so that SUCKS. But right now, I think I'm going to leave it in God's more than capable hands, so whatever happens, it must be His will.
Talking about Him, I've been feeling really far away from Him lately and I don't like it at all! I pray (maybe not enough, but I'm trying), I read my Bible and I trust Him to help me through everything, especially exams. I don't know what more to do. He gives me beautiful verses when I ask for them or need them, but it feels like something is missing. I prayed that I want to come closer to Him, and I worshiped earlier tonight, and I feel a little closer, but not quite where I used to be. I feel empty, almost. It's horrible, and I don't know how this happened. I guess that maybe it's because there hasn't been a praise and worship or Alpha (it's a Christian group that meets before school every Thursday, except in exam times) and I need these things to keep me alive in my faith and trust, but I don't want to rely on these outer things, because one day they'll be gone. Please pray for me, and I will for you if you want me too. Just comment. And if you have an inspiring verse or something, please feel free to comment as well. We're in this together, aren't we? :)
Anyway, I hope God fills you up with Him, the Holy Spirit and Jesus
Love Emma
Friday, 18 November 2011
Sunday, 13 November 2011
Well, this is depressing -.-
I'm feeling extremely depressed right now, hence the fact that something I had been hoping (a lot) for, isn't going to happen. :( It sucks, to say the least.
School ends next week Thursday and we (my friends and I) are planning this big get-together for a lot of our friends (and our crushes). We're all going to my friend's house at Sundays River Mouth and there's a festival there that weekend and I was hoping for all kinds of things. The boy was going to be there, you see. But now he can't come. I WAS HOPING FOR SO MUCH. I am now quite depressed. Ugh. Boys are stupid. I'm sorry if you are a boy. You're probably not stupid. Let me rephrase: Boys I KNOW are stupid. There, that's better. :)
I know this has happened for a reason and I prayed about it ( a lot) and so I know that this is God's will, but that doesn't take away any of my disappointment. I was hoping to get to know him better and to be alone with him more and things like that. Huh. This is why I hate wishing and hoping. Because it ALWAYS ENDS IN DISAPPOINTMENT.
Well, anyway. I'm starting exams tomorrow. Pray for me please. Thank you :)
Have a great week!
xxx May God be with you and your kin
School ends next week Thursday and we (my friends and I) are planning this big get-together for a lot of our friends (and our crushes). We're all going to my friend's house at Sundays River Mouth and there's a festival there that weekend and I was hoping for all kinds of things. The boy was going to be there, you see. But now he can't come. I WAS HOPING FOR SO MUCH. I am now quite depressed. Ugh. Boys are stupid. I'm sorry if you are a boy. You're probably not stupid. Let me rephrase: Boys I KNOW are stupid. There, that's better. :)
I know this has happened for a reason and I prayed about it ( a lot) and so I know that this is God's will, but that doesn't take away any of my disappointment. I was hoping to get to know him better and to be alone with him more and things like that. Huh. This is why I hate wishing and hoping. Because it ALWAYS ENDS IN DISAPPOINTMENT.
Well, anyway. I'm starting exams tomorrow. Pray for me please. Thank you :)
Have a great week!
xxx May God be with you and your kin
Friday, 11 November 2011
Just a reminder that yes, I am still here :)
Yes, I am still alive. I know it's been quite a while, but that is what comes from being a boarder. Oh well :)
This week was my last week as a grade 9 (exams don't count) and it was really sad :'(
We had a huge class party today and it was pretty cool. We also did this cool thing, where my class spelled out 11/11/11, because we just think that it's cool and stuff. I shall post a photo later. We also did this thing where we form a nine (because we're in grade 9), but this was just some girls from my grade, not my class.
I feel so sorry for my sister, because she didn't make her primary school's prefect list for 2010. It really sucks because everybody thought she was a shoo-in and also because I was when I was here age. The only thing comforting her now is that she is second in her grade - how WOW is that?? I could only dream to do so well!! She is so extremely clever!
Earlier in the week someone I know wrote this on my Facebook wall:
Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLT)
This really meant a lot too me, because I've been struggling with all kinds of things, like exam stress, stress for what situations I might find myself in this holiday and things to do with the boy (there has been no real progress, except we're on speaking terms again). This just showed me again that I mustn't be scared, but should trust God with every aspect of my life.
Last week we found out that one girl in my class's grandma has cancer and we prayed for her, and now it's going much, much better with her. We also prayed for my other friend's older brother, who needed a job, and the next day we found out that he got one! It really helps me to believe and to just improve my relationship with God, when I hear things like these, because it shows that He really does answer our prayers.
Anyway, here is our "nine" photo <3 :
PS it's not very good quality, sorry!
much love,
Emma, a believer of Christ
xx
This week was my last week as a grade 9 (exams don't count) and it was really sad :'(
We had a huge class party today and it was pretty cool. We also did this cool thing, where my class spelled out 11/11/11, because we just think that it's cool and stuff. I shall post a photo later. We also did this thing where we form a nine (because we're in grade 9), but this was just some girls from my grade, not my class.
I feel so sorry for my sister, because she didn't make her primary school's prefect list for 2010. It really sucks because everybody thought she was a shoo-in and also because I was when I was here age. The only thing comforting her now is that she is second in her grade - how WOW is that?? I could only dream to do so well!! She is so extremely clever!
Earlier in the week someone I know wrote this on my Facebook wall:
Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLT)
6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
This really meant a lot too me, because I've been struggling with all kinds of things, like exam stress, stress for what situations I might find myself in this holiday and things to do with the boy (there has been no real progress, except we're on speaking terms again). This just showed me again that I mustn't be scared, but should trust God with every aspect of my life.
Last week we found out that one girl in my class's grandma has cancer and we prayed for her, and now it's going much, much better with her. We also prayed for my other friend's older brother, who needed a job, and the next day we found out that he got one! It really helps me to believe and to just improve my relationship with God, when I hear things like these, because it shows that He really does answer our prayers.
Anyway, here is our "nine" photo <3 :
PS it's not very good quality, sorry!
Emma, a believer of Christ
xx
Sunday, 6 November 2011
Aloha! :)
I hope you've been doing greatly and that God is filling your life! :)
Time to tell you more about myself and such things. Well, I'm in grade 9 (15) in an Afrikaans school, I have English- and Afrikaans Home Language as subjects and was first in my grade this year as well as last year, in English HL. I play hockey and tennis. I'm actually not sure which team I play in tennis, I basically play whenever I can. I'm not very serious about my tennis, hockey is more important. I have been chosen for the u/16 A hockey tour group, that is touring to Cape Town in March next year. I am so extremely excited, because I wanted to be u/16A last year, but didn't make it, so this is great for me! :D :D I was also chosen as captain for the tour, so that makes it even more exciting! :D The only problem is that I have never been a captain of a team, so I'm really scared and I don't know if I'll be able to do it correctly, but I know God gave me this opportunity for a reason :) ♥
Uhhmm..what more is there about me..? Well, I think I'm a boring person. I was born on 1 Oct 1996 and I live on a beautiful farm. We farm with all the normal stuff like cattle, sheep and goats as well as with olives.
I don't have a boyfriend, I do have friends though! :P hehe I am in the hostel and...that's all I can think of! :) ha ha ha :)
Oh and I use the :) - face too much :):):)
Something to think about:
2 Timothy 1:8 (NLT)
So never be afraid to tell others about the LORD
Have a blessed week!
xx, Emma
I hope you've been doing greatly and that God is filling your life! :)
Time to tell you more about myself and such things. Well, I'm in grade 9 (15) in an Afrikaans school, I have English- and Afrikaans Home Language as subjects and was first in my grade this year as well as last year, in English HL. I play hockey and tennis. I'm actually not sure which team I play in tennis, I basically play whenever I can. I'm not very serious about my tennis, hockey is more important. I have been chosen for the u/16 A hockey tour group, that is touring to Cape Town in March next year. I am so extremely excited, because I wanted to be u/16A last year, but didn't make it, so this is great for me! :D :D I was also chosen as captain for the tour, so that makes it even more exciting! :D The only problem is that I have never been a captain of a team, so I'm really scared and I don't know if I'll be able to do it correctly, but I know God gave me this opportunity for a reason :) ♥
Uhhmm..what more is there about me..? Well, I think I'm a boring person. I was born on 1 Oct 1996 and I live on a beautiful farm. We farm with all the normal stuff like cattle, sheep and goats as well as with olives.
I don't have a boyfriend, I do have friends though! :P hehe I am in the hostel and...that's all I can think of! :) ha ha ha :)
Oh and I use the :) - face too much :):):)
Something to think about:
2 Timothy 1:8 (NLT)
So never be afraid to tell others about the LORD
Have a blessed week!
xx, Emma
Saturday, 5 November 2011
Well hello dear stranger :)
Well, I have quite some to say, so I don't even know where to begin! Ha ha! I'm sorry if i forget something, but it would just be so like me.
Psalm 121:7
7The LORD will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
Jeremiah 19:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
I know these verses are quite well-known, but that doesn't take away the beauty that they hold.
On Thursday we went to an orphanage, Oosterland Youth Center in Despatch, with the hostel. All the Gr.8's and 9's went (I'm gr.9) and we took them these cute home-made purse things and muffins. We played all kinds of games with them and they responded really well and it was great! Our housemother at the hostel, who arranged all of this, says that we're going to make this a tradition each term, and that each grade will get a different house to which they will go each time.
At the orphanage they explained what they do and why the children are there and such. All of the children - from babies till 18 yrs old - are placed there by the court because their living conditions are unacceptable for whatever reason, whether it's that there's no food or because they're abused. They stay there for two years and then their situation is reassessed.
To get back to the present, we got a new kitten today, a cute ginger one. I think we've named her Cinnamon, but I'm not one hundred percent sure. I think the name is cute, but it's too long, but whatever, that's just my opinion. Our other cat, Pixie, isn't taking very well to Cinnamon. I hope it goes better soon. :)
That reminds me, I haven't described my family yet! Well there is my dad, Phillip, mom, Sue, little sister, Lauren (12) and me Emma (15). We have one dog (we used to have two, but about 3 weeks ago Barney, our Jackrussel, died :( ... He was about 13), Shadow, a sheepdog. We also have two cats, Pixie and Cinnamon. We got Cinnamon, because earlier in the year our other cat, Jessie, died. She was maybe 16, 17? Something like that.
Oh, and my sister has a goldfish, Beef. And yes, he is crazy.
Well, I have quite some to say, so I don't even know where to begin! Ha ha! I'm sorry if i forget something, but it would just be so like me.
Anyway, I read these verses and thought it's so nice to know, because sometimes we just tend to forget that no matter what God loves and protects us and that whatever happens in our lives, He plans it and He sees the bigger picture, while we might not.
7The LORD will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
Jeremiah 19:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
I know these verses are quite well-known, but that doesn't take away the beauty that they hold.
On Thursday we went to an orphanage, Oosterland Youth Center in Despatch, with the hostel. All the Gr.8's and 9's went (I'm gr.9) and we took them these cute home-made purse things and muffins. We played all kinds of games with them and they responded really well and it was great! Our housemother at the hostel, who arranged all of this, says that we're going to make this a tradition each term, and that each grade will get a different house to which they will go each time.
At the orphanage they explained what they do and why the children are there and such. All of the children - from babies till 18 yrs old - are placed there by the court because their living conditions are unacceptable for whatever reason, whether it's that there's no food or because they're abused. They stay there for two years and then their situation is reassessed.
To get back to the present, we got a new kitten today, a cute ginger one. I think we've named her Cinnamon, but I'm not one hundred percent sure. I think the name is cute, but it's too long, but whatever, that's just my opinion. Our other cat, Pixie, isn't taking very well to Cinnamon. I hope it goes better soon. :)
That reminds me, I haven't described my family yet! Well there is my dad, Phillip, mom, Sue, little sister, Lauren (12) and me Emma (15). We have one dog (we used to have two, but about 3 weeks ago Barney, our Jackrussel, died :( ... He was about 13), Shadow, a sheepdog. We also have two cats, Pixie and Cinnamon. We got Cinnamon, because earlier in the year our other cat, Jessie, died. She was maybe 16, 17? Something like that.
Oh, and my sister has a goldfish, Beef. And yes, he is crazy.
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